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"In the still of the silent dawn, another day is born"
I update this thing less and less as time goes on, it seems. I don't have a whole lot to write about. Mostly, I'm just trying to figure out stuff... where I'm headed in life and what my purpose is, moving on, reconstructing the past to fit new revelations. Perhaps I should elaborate further... with an update:
--I saw my primary care doctor regarding my knee, and she thought physical therapy would be beneficial for me. I've had two sessions so far, and they've greatly helped. My exercises strengthen muscles that have a tendency to get ignored when running, and also make sure the kneecap stays in alignment. I started running again, but short distances (e.g. 3 miles) and only once a week. I ran/walked 6 miles this past Saturday, and my knee hurts a bit today.
--I discovered that Ryan is now in a relationship with someone else, and honestly, I'm pissed off and hurt simultaneously. He never gave me a decent explanation for why he broke up with me, but now it all makes sense. All those lines about how he was "messed up" and "needed to work on his issues" were just a load of bullshit. Guess he found what he wanted... someone in Spokane who loves kids as much as he does. She has two of her own, so they're built into the relationship--an instant family. Honestly, I feel sorry for her because he'll probably put her through the same crap he put me through, and in the process, will hurt her two kids as well. I feel utterly deceived. He led me on, thinking our relationship was going to be more than it ended up being. He fooled my friends and family into thinking he was a great guy and a good fit for me. And now I wish I never met him because this whole ordeal just wasn't worth it. I hope one day he's sorry for the way he treated me (i.e. something easy to discard when she's lost her usefulness). But through this, I've realized that I can do so much better than him. I am worth more than what he did to me. And now I have closure.
And now for more upbeat news...
--I went to the MN State Fair and the Renaissance Festival during Labor Day weekend and had a great time. I tried the chocolate-covered bacon at the Fair... it wasn't bad, but not a combination that really fits together. I also got my fill of cheese curds, hotdish on a stick, Sweet Martha's cookies and milk, and a strawberry milkshake. RenFest was also enjoyable; I love dressing up in my costume, perusing the shops with my friends, and drinking mead. :-)
--Still liking Mercy Vineyard Church a lot; it challenges me. I hope to be more involved this fall by joining the prayer or worship teams.
--On Sunday afternoon, I toured the Chateau St. Croix winery and vineyard in St. Croix Falls, WI. The winery is like a European estate, with a slate chateau nestled in Western Wisconsin's slightly rolling and fertile farmland. I sampled five of their wines, bought a bottle of their 2007 Golden Harvest white wine and a slab of cheese with merlot mixed in, and also received a wine glass as a memento from the tour. I'm thinking of checking out another winery this Sunday, if anyone's interested. I just need to find another relatively local one...
--I saw my primary care doctor regarding my knee, and she thought physical therapy would be beneficial for me. I've had two sessions so far, and they've greatly helped. My exercises strengthen muscles that have a tendency to get ignored when running, and also make sure the kneecap stays in alignment. I started running again, but short distances (e.g. 3 miles) and only once a week. I ran/walked 6 miles this past Saturday, and my knee hurts a bit today.
--I discovered that Ryan is now in a relationship with someone else, and honestly, I'm pissed off and hurt simultaneously. He never gave me a decent explanation for why he broke up with me, but now it all makes sense. All those lines about how he was "messed up" and "needed to work on his issues" were just a load of bullshit. Guess he found what he wanted... someone in Spokane who loves kids as much as he does. She has two of her own, so they're built into the relationship--an instant family. Honestly, I feel sorry for her because he'll probably put her through the same crap he put me through, and in the process, will hurt her two kids as well. I feel utterly deceived. He led me on, thinking our relationship was going to be more than it ended up being. He fooled my friends and family into thinking he was a great guy and a good fit for me. And now I wish I never met him because this whole ordeal just wasn't worth it. I hope one day he's sorry for the way he treated me (i.e. something easy to discard when she's lost her usefulness). But through this, I've realized that I can do so much better than him. I am worth more than what he did to me. And now I have closure.
And now for more upbeat news...
--I went to the MN State Fair and the Renaissance Festival during Labor Day weekend and had a great time. I tried the chocolate-covered bacon at the Fair... it wasn't bad, but not a combination that really fits together. I also got my fill of cheese curds, hotdish on a stick, Sweet Martha's cookies and milk, and a strawberry milkshake. RenFest was also enjoyable; I love dressing up in my costume, perusing the shops with my friends, and drinking mead. :-)
--Still liking Mercy Vineyard Church a lot; it challenges me. I hope to be more involved this fall by joining the prayer or worship teams.
--On Sunday afternoon, I toured the Chateau St. Croix winery and vineyard in St. Croix Falls, WI. The winery is like a European estate, with a slate chateau nestled in Western Wisconsin's slightly rolling and fertile farmland. I sampled five of their wines, bought a bottle of their 2007 Golden Harvest white wine and a slab of cheese with merlot mixed in, and also received a wine glass as a memento from the tour. I'm thinking of checking out another winery this Sunday, if anyone's interested. I just need to find another relatively local one...